I was thinking.

Sometimes that can lead to trouble. But it has been a while since I looked deep into my heart and yes, my soul.  I share these thoughts not to enlighten you or drive you to do the same; it just feels right to say things out loud.  Or should I say publish it. 

I feel so privileged to have been born, and feel it important to become a better person, to love deeper, to appreciate more and to forgive.

Let's start with better person.  I decided a few years ago to draw a five feet parameter around me.  This was my circle in which I worked my daily deeds.  Within that circle I would focus on anyone that was inside of it. This meant I had to take the time and try to meet them with a smile or greeting. This is much harder than I ever imagined.  On good days it's a breeze, but on the days when I'm tired or sad, it takes everything to do it.  I still consider it the best thing I have ever implemented into my life.  At night when I pray before bedtime, I think over the day, and commit to a better day tomorrow.

To love deeper. Love is a word used too lightly. I don't like to say it unless I mean it. I have friends that I truly love, why, because they except me for me.  I want to make sure that I am worthy of their love, do I listen, do I care? 

This also goes for my family. I love them so much, coming from a large family and in laws, we run the gamete when it comes to personalities. But what is it worth to focus on the differences and not on what we have in common?

Appreciated more, I find that the world around me tells me that I need more of this and that.  Go out and buy more, be young, be skinny and just have more.  I am so over that. I decided to thank God every morning for what was important to me. I thank him for my husband, my family, my puppy Austin, and my talent.  There is a difference between need and want. I try to think of it that way, do I need or do I just want?  Remember want is not a need.

Forgive, this one is my most troubling commitment.  People hurt and don't think, they stomp on your feeling and walk away.  If you have been following me for awhile I talked about the home association meeting where the group of six families set out to hurt, and did well. I don't hold a grudge against them but I don't want to know them and don't want them in my life.  Is that really forgiveness.  I probably have a little growing to do in this area. Something for tomorrow I guess.

God Bless those who follow my little blog.
Carol