The week before when I settle in bed or when drinking my midday tea I look back and see if what I did for others unselfishly was truly unselfish. Could I have done it for a return of favor, or truly because I just wanted to. This of course is not something you are going to take on in one thoughtful moment. It takes me about a week to filter through my past. Mostly because I did it on my birthday, I only have a few months to remember. I always hope I don't remember, than it truly was done with an open heart.
The other part of the equation is who I am. I looked over the last couple of months and realized that I didn't just jump of the bridge when it came to the sale of our home and buying the new house. I was proud of myself for asking the questions, and questioning the things I feared the most. Also allowing my husband to take control. In return, I moved into a house that would soon be home. It was perfect, sunny, bright, warm and it fit like a glove.
So the bottom line is I did pretty good. I trusted my self with my giving, I trusted John with were I lay my head, and God with all the little problems that would have brought me down.
This has been good, and I will continue to make it better. Life is too short not to trust those you love, but most of all those who love you.
God Bless those who travel through my little world.