Friday, April 22, 2011

I traveled to the dark side.

When I got up yesterday morning, I felt a shift in the world. As usual, I don't believe in it, but yesterday seemed different. I think if I had left it alone, maybe it would straighten back out. But not me. I fear that putting black coffee in my favorite green tea cup might have changed the karma of the day. As the day went on, things seemed to go wrong. Didn't feel well, felt a little light headed and way too tired.



That evening was our Home Owners Meeting, in which I am the secretary. I have to say that the volunteer position was very painful. There are a group that had it out for everything that happened and told me so through many e-mails. Well, let me tell you, they were in full force last night and I had never seen such cruelty ever. So as we the board was under fire, I found it hard to breath and comprehend what was going on. At the end of the meeting, I decided to resign. That was no way to treat people. There goes southern hospitality.


I knew that I had become weary of the complainers and spent way too much time replying to them. It took away from my sleep and creativity. My designing really is what makes me whole. So maybe it's not the world that was shifting to hurt me but help me. Hummm.


I didn't listen to my heart. So I had to experience it. But God only gives me what I can handle and I can handle this. I have more time for my family, friends, and designing. I feel good. I wanted to tell you this because I became stronger last night and that my friends is wonderful.


God Bless those who travel through my little blog.

Carol

2 comments:

  1. Carol--There is a group at my school like that that. They seem to thrive on strife and discontentment. After every meeting I felt like I wanted to take a shower to wash off the negativity. It does impede creativity and your own peace of mind. I had to quit going as a department representative. Now I help "detox" the poor woman that took my place.

    I hope you are able to shake off all the complainers and look up into blue skies and find peace and contentment very soon! Take care of yourself!

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  2. Good choice Carol! I witnessed many meetings with lack of respect and cruelity to others when I worked...if I was on another board now and that happened, I would resign too. I want to spend the rest of my life surrounded by positivity and love as much as possible..and if there are choices about this, you need to insist upon them. Good for you!

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